PEP TALKS #7 PRETEND AND SUFFOCATE

There's a lot of things, that i want to said to the others people, but i don't know if they can handle that shit or i can't handle that shit.
the problem doesn't lies there, a lot of things has happen since the day i was born.
the way i live, the way i make friends, my story and everything that comes with it.

maybe it is too much that i can't handle it, but maybe i am just pretending that i don't care but the truth is not, i do care, but i try to be naive, and make it everything is ok. Keep prentending that everything is well and good.

but here i am suffocate my lungs, suffocate my freedom just to please the other people,
play nice with the family, friends, co workers, and everything around me.

did this really happen ?
or is it just me that think this way,
or maybe i am trying to be someone else just so i can take the advantage of them or maybe i just being honest with them.

the mind keep spining around, and the talks the we heard, we talks, and everything that we do,
maybe reflecting who we are, but maybe not.
maybe we are just fall asleep as we think that dejavu..

really ?
did you mean it, you prentend so well that nobody notice it.
but maybe time will tell, maybe there's will be enough or we had enough about everything
like i dont give a fuck about everything else, nothing else matter anymore,

money, fame, friends, foe, girlfriends, family even yourself.

did you starting to doubting yourself.
did you suffer enough, that you will take your own life just so you can live ?

expecting something in returns for the things that we've done for ourselves and maybe others.

keep pretending, and suffocate your freedom.

because there's always a word that we can be said, and things that can be done.

the problem keep piling up big enough that we can be buried inside of ourselves
just do we can be alive, happy and just a live a life that we are never care about...


trust no one including yourself.
so you can justify yourself, and be kind to yourself
because no one else matter, a man for himself.


sincerely

ADE