Is it really worth ?

Sometimes i do wonder, what i should do.
everything seems to be blur.
sometimes it's become clear, i know what i should do, but sometimes it's gone,

maybe it's just a lack of motivation that i have, but maybe there's another factor that tie me down.

sigh, i do wonder about that,
is it all the work that i do, really worth it ?
it's a question to myself, the question that i've been struggling for years.

it's not like i don't want to talk about it, it's just i don't want to.
there's a lot of aspect that i need to consider, maybe after it's really finish.

i will really open about it,
for now i will keep this for myself.

let it flow for now, there's a lot of work and  a lot shit that need to be done, to be honest, i am tired, tired of all this shit, and that..

not physically but mentally,

i've already burned out to the point maybe i can't back again, even though for a moment i can be me again, this struggle inside me, i will fight it.

for now i will fight it, for the light that still burn inside of me.

adios.